Let The Drummer Make Some Noise

How do I even begin to express what it’s been like??? I guess the best way to do so is in the simplest form possible. It’s been really hard! I find myself being completely lost. The last couple of days have been the worst. I wake up and walk around all day with a cloud over my head. The funny thing is that once I get a chance to talk to you my day turns around completely. You chase away those stormy clouds and replace them with sunshine. If only you would make it so it was always bright and sunny in my life.

I don’t know if people would ever admit to this themselves, but I’ll be the first one to tell you — being christian is tough. I don’t mean religiously, I mean just living life on a daily basis. The devil throws everything he can at you to bring you down. To wipe that smile off of your face that God gives you each and every new day. Whenever you attempt to let God shine through you he will do everything in his power to stop it. As a mere human all I can say is that it does get to you. Personally I say that even though I know I have God on my side and that all things are possible through Him, my human soul pains and my heart breaks just like anyone else’s.

To those of you who actually know me — I know I may look like I am strong and can handle most anything, but I can’t. Even I find myself fighting back tears plenty of times. I need God in my life to help through everything that comes at me. In recent months I have seen my life go up and down like an emotional roller coaster. I have felt like I was on top of the world and then in an instant drowning in the deepest parts of the ocean. Maybe some of you know why (but I won’t go into it here). The point is that no matter the pain that I have felt, when things have looked so damp, gray and I wished God would just call me back home to end the pains of this world I know that He still has plans for me here. In short to quote one of my favorite bands, Relient K, ” I’m guarded and therefore I can endure a little bit more, just a little bit more, than some people would…”

In closing I guess I’ll just say it again but more general, living is hard no matter who you are and life will run you into the ground. But God is here to help you out. Even when it seems most like you are alone, God is there. He is what gets you through these hard times. I know He helps me every day in my daily struggles. If it weren’t for God and His mercy I wouldn’t be here today.